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-perhaps am just too selfish
- perhaps my expectations were too unreasonable.
- does it make a difference when things are much more clarified?, or perhaps somethings should just remain in the heart to prevent conflict.
- i do not like you to mingle with the group but does it really mean i am unreasonable? i wonder really. to me it is just too much groups to hang out with, perhaps i was wrong. but don even bother thinking another sec more. perhaps less asking less time being piss or whatever it is may put our love to a much happier one.
- perhaps recently i have been neglecting too much or perhaps i took you for granted, always expect things to happen in my way. perhaps i was little too selfish, yes i am sorry about this.
i do really hope you are the one walking down the long years of road ahead. i knew both of us love each other deeply, i knew i wont wanna lose a gf like you, you were all different from all the past. you would listen to me if i say this way, but thats not i tot it should be, cause the way i do things, i hope you understand my rational.... perhaps it was too much of my rational and none of yours, i would want to listen to yours, but you never knew what exactly was it. and this is just you.. and this is just who i loved, the simple thinking bubbly jenny nam i loved and always will.
there were always stupid thouts across my mind when i felt angry and u were too. i knew and really hope all this thots wont happen i will do my utmost to prevent it all.
-perhaps recently i have failed in doing well as a bf.
- It hurts me to see you in tears, in pain, anger and so on, but sometimes i just am angry and sometimes just rushed into conclusion.

-i knew i loved attention from you, perhaps i wasnt getting as much thats why i felt angry sometimes. take the dinner for instance i was still hungry but i wasnt first offered, but instead yeap and thats why i did not want any else. knew this were all stupid little actions.
take the prawning session, knew you were unwell, i wanna take care of you, but you were so engrossed into playing ur game while i was happily getting my first prawn, i wanted to share my joy with you but you were unaffected by the surrounding and cant be bothered with my first prawn. and so i neglected you unintentionally, not knewing u still felt unwell, i tot u were pissed, but to me i tot u just wanna play ur psp, stupid of me, neglecting you, so sad to see u shivering when it rained, but what happen had happened nothing done can be undone. BUT something left undone could be done later on rite? so that thing i needa do is perhaps to change my stupid fuck attitude at times, perhaps i just need to give in more, perhaps all i tot i gave alot, was nothing, perhaps all along why i failed all my past relationship was because i din give enough. I tot i was selfless, yes i am selfless to my frens but now i felt that i am not towards my family and my girl.
or perhaps i just too selfish.